so guess what? i am happy...i have not said that in a while, but i am...just happy..for two days i was just happy for no reason and now i do have a reason i am finally getting a new stereo for my car!yay! and i don't have to pay hundreds of dollars! double yay! and i get to go shopping with my cousin the day after thanksgiving!triple yay! and i realized that i have some new friends, they are mostly guys(which has never happened to me before) and i don't like any of them and i don't want any of them to like me...it is great just people hanging out, and i can just be "one of the guys" i love it...and i am so glad that this semester is almost over, i am so sick of these classes! so yup, i have not felt generally happy in a long time, i mean i have been happy about certain things for a little while, but now i am happy...you guys have no idea how good i feel lately, i wish i could see all of you and share my new found happiness with you!!!ok hope to talk to you soon...i miss you all!

~amanda~

okay so i totally feel myself me becoming more and more anti-social...i mean how lame am i? i so am not even in the mood to meet new people rigth now, but i am so totally lonely! i don't get it..i mean like i thought that i had made this gret new friend and now i realize that it was not that great of a friendship...know what i mean...but then again i did meet this really sweet guy i just don't know if i have the energy to dea with new realtionships right now though, but i don't want my current relationship to suffer either....dude, i am such a lame-o. oh well. if anybody has any advice let me know cuz i could sure use it!

well i am having all these messed up feelings and i am really digging this song and it seems to fit so i thought i should share the lyrics with you guys---i love you!!

RUFIO LYRICS

"Out Of Control"

Gimme a reason
I'm on my knees and
I'm begging anything to keep me alive

I'm treading water
Your mind is stronger
I'm faking anything that I can't defy

Your broken heart's gone
And now you're all alone
You're giving everything
And now you'll break mine

I'm saying sorry
The words are nothing
Your voice is poison
And it gets worse

In time [x6]

[Chorus]
This is out of control
We are still locked down today
We keep playing along
With intentions

What intentions?

It's like a bad dream
Another story running circles
in the back of my mind
So now it's ok to give me nothing
'Cause I was using you so I could get mine

You know I wanted to see only you
But you were trying just to keep me away
We're realizing, We're patronizing
So now its over but the past it remains

In time [x6]

[Chorus x2]

What intentions?

These imperfections make it hurt
And you're far away now but I know you're coming home

This is out of control
We can't make it on our own
We keep playing along
Just to leave us more alone
This is out of control
This happy ending's getting old
But we're playing along with intentions

So there it is i hope you enjoy it 'cuz i really love this song!

A- Age of 1st kiss: 16(how pathetic am i?)
B- Band you are listening to right now: fall out boy
C- Crush: HAHA  I am not telling!!
D- Dad's name: Mike
E- Easiest person to talk to: What does that mean? prolly gia
F- Favorite ice cream: Vanilla (i'm a simple kinda girl)
G- Gummy worms or gummy bears? worms
H- Hometown: i guess lake elsinore
I- Instruments: Huh? i used to play clarinet but now i sing
J- Junior high: Almondale
K- Kids: What the crap? when i have a son i will name him Aiden
L- Longest car ride ever: to arizona
M- Mom's name: Gloria
N- Nicknames: mana, mand
O- One wish: well i have a wish about a boy but i kinda wish for a job 
P- Phobia[s]: snakes and spiders
Q- Quote: EWWW....nasty!!
R- Reason to smile: a boy--HAHA still no name for you!!!
S- Song you sang last: "on Eagles WIngs" i love that song!!!
T- Time you woke up today: 5:00
U- Unknown fact about me: i have many
V- Vegetable(s) you hate: spinach
W- Worst habit: nail biting
X- X-rays you've had: foot, wrist, teeth, shoulder
Y- Your least favorite person as of right now: erick
Z- Zodiac sign: Libra baby!!!